Somewhere in the chaos and rush of wifedom and motherhood I have forgotten how much I love music.
Today I’m alone and I’m not working. Or, at least, I’m not working in the traditional sense, though I am practicing, as my friend MJ says, the “Home Arts.” I’m cooking for the feast that we will have with four of our best friends tonight. Standing rib roast, yorkshire puddings (ask someone British if you don’t know what these are – then do your best to get some…), roast potatoes, Brussels sprouts, butternut squash, Pavlova (ditto above – just ask someone Australian or a Kiwi) and some homemade ice cream to round out the gluttony.
I was going to turn on the TV while I cooked, but come on, between the ice cream maker, mixer and being on the other side of the room, I wouldn’t hear a thing. So, instead, I decided to open the long ignored iTunes icon and I chose a playlist I made many years ago – before the aforementioned wifedom and motherhood. I called the playlist “Awe.” It contains songs that make me feel fully alive – the kind of songs that make you want to dance around, sing as loud as you can, and not care who sees or hears you. These songs make me feel FULL. Full of life, and love and wonder. They are the kind of songs that make me cry from happiness, and sadness, and longing and joy.
Most of these songs are not “hits” for anyone but me. Somewhat obscure bands like Catherine Wheel, The Lowest of the Low and Bob Mould, plenty of ’80s “alternative” music and (for me) some bizarre additions like The Black Eyed Peas. There are songs everyone knows too, but together this list just, well, sings to me.
The feeling these songs give me is part of the reason I have “blown up my life” (another gem courtesy of MJ) and decided to follow B to the African jungles (even though they might be concrete jungles primarily).
And listening is reminding me that life is full of Awe, isn’t it? In song, in art, in the goodness of other humans, in just looking out the window and seeing a gorgeous blue sky with passing clouds, in smelling bacon cooking. In so many ways.
I have had a million small and large moments of awe this year – it’s been a good one, 2014. But my playlist is reminding of how much awe there is to come in 2015. I can’t wait.
I’ve got to get back to my Choux de Bruxelles now, and Spoon just came on so I need to get up and dance. For anyone who is curious, the whole list of “AWE” is below.
Happy New Year friends. I hope 2015 is awe-some – and awe-filled – for all of you.
Litany (Life Goes On) Guadalcanal Diary
Can’t Stand It Wilco
New Year’s Day U2
Judy Staring At The Sun Catherine Wheel
Blister In The Sun Violent Femmes
Sit Down James
But Not Tonight Depeche Mode
Forever Young Alphaville
Song 2 Blur
Hoover Dam Sugar
Just Can’t Get Enough Depeche Mode
Love Is Strange Everything But The Girl
Heal Catherine Wheel
Do You Realize? The Flaming Lips
Life Our Lady Peace
Rosy And Grey The Lowest Of The Low
I Turn My Camera On Spoon
Super Bon Bon Soul Coughing
So What’cha Want The Beastie Boys
Gone Going Black Eyed Peas
So Alive Ryan Adams
See a Little Light [*] Bob Mould
Just Like Heaven The Cure
I’m Free The Soup Dragons
This Is The Day The The
Every Morning Sugar Ray
Thank You Led Zeppelin